Short Poem To Buff

Always wanting to be patient never asking you to choose, not pushing to be in your world, nor asking to stay or what to do.

Simply dreading to move on this one thing is for certain, but I'm holding on yes praying that this love becomes outspoken.

Still waiting for the moment, knowing not now nor tomorrow, but you should know the space between us brings me nothing but sorrow.

I'm merely asking if this feeling in my heart is true and real, believing for what it's worth that it is shortly to reveal.

No you can't hurry love nor force it's fate, yea you know if its meant to be love it will surly find a way.

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